will i find a guy who calls me beautiful instead of hot, who calls me back when i hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch me sleeping, wait for the guy who kisses my forehead, who wants to show me off to the world when i m in yr sweats, who will hold my hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." wonder if there is such a guy on earth. I believe there will be such a guy but definitely dun belong to me. Trying to be patience,sweet, nice to him...but seems to be a waste. Tis morning my mother still ask me m i going to marry him? Is he the one? I myself oso dun knw hw m i suppose to ans her. I hate pple asking me tis question.ARGH~~~

sick sick sick...recently have been falling sick. argh~~ when i m sick i will lose concentration,get tired easily..blah blah blah..Sigh ~~wat greatly disappointed is excepted to pass but in the end fail.. i m so disappointed in myself. totally disappointed. Is not easy to handle work n study at the same time. But well have to work harder for it ba.

When prbm arise, i know i shld not avoid but m i really avoiding it or i just hack care. i myself oso dun know. Just can't think straight. I m confused. I need someone to enlighten me. The more people give me advice the more i get confused. When i m confused i will be very angry with myself. I care too much abt my surrounding pple. I care for their feeling. Have been telling myself just wat the F**k do i need to care abt their feeling. I oso dun know when i developed this kind of caring other pple's feeling.Maybe someone/sth had change my heart,i dun know. I just dun want to hurt anybody neither do i want to get hurt. M i losing faith in myself or m i too naive to believe wat pple say or m i thinking too much. Humans being are the dangerous creature on earth. U won't know who is true or fake to u. I only know i slowly starting to seal my feelings up, giving attitude.I just want to be alone..........

no mood to blog. dun know y oso, just suddenly sian of everything. I have alot of things to do but no strength to go do. And i have to one by one to do it. I have to always remind myself i can do it. Have been bother by alot of things N think alot of stuffs. The more i think the more i wan an answer, but i knw i will never get the ans. Time will provide me the ans. Hw long m i going to wait? Should i make it happen or just wait, i dun know. Let nature take it cos. Starting to feel that i m useless. Need to go find some power......

Just now i was looking at my friendster photo album. It bring back alot of memories. Kinda of miss it very much. Esp when working at the previous coy. There was a alot of laughter n fun. Happy times tends to pass faster than sorrow. I miss the times with u all gals. Still miss the time when we go clubbing. I rem there was tis time we club until siao. Tat was my happiest time. Hw i wish everyday i m happy.But i m not. Sigh~~ I wish nthing had happen. I wish i was as happy as b4...... 谁改变了我的世界, 没有方向没有日夜, 我看着天这一刻在想你, 是否会对我一样思念 .

Was watching a channel 5 show, the title is stories of love(the anthology series). I don't know wat was it abt,but when i see those pple whom had done so much to their loved ones is suffering.I feel so sad n bad for them. Cos it was like reflecting on me. When u had done so much to ur loved one n in the end ur loved ones dun doted,care,concern n even hurt u. I think the feeling hurts even more bad than u go hurt others.Sometimes i feel like going ard hurting pple but i just dun have the heart to do so. Often i think is nt worth doing so much for someone tat u love alot. cos they won't know hw to appreciate or maybe they dun even want to appreciate. Letting go mean letting the person to live happier. Y must things turn to be ugly then come n feel sorry abt it.No point feeling sorry after the person had gone. I m tired n restless. Maybe i should just leave quietly..........................................................................

Haven't been happy for the past few weeks. Recently even worst(cos somebody make me very unhappy).Even going out with frenz i have to act happy. Cos i can't tell anyone my 心事. Sometimes i wish i was not born in tis world then there will be no sadness,unhappiness,sorrow....
I try to let go but i just can't.Y?? M i too soft hearted? Or m i just holding on to it. Watever issit i just dun like the feeling. I agreed with my cousin. It takes two to marry but it takes just one to divorce. If you think u r nt ready to get together then dun marry. Nowadays pple take marriage as a child play. Wat on earth is the world coming to. No one is perfect, learn to love an inperfect person. If you think pple r concerning u care abt u , y don't you think pple have motive doing that?? Unless he/she really like u then i gt nothing to say.There is still alot of things for us to learn. EY, you must grow up.Don't be too naive.

P/S: I must learn how to love an inperfect person in order to hand on to this r/ship.

E.Y (taiho)

E.Y (taiho)

Been tagged for no reason....CC u treat me very good le...Thank you hor...Since i'v been tagged, no choice have to write...:(

1) I had a very very bad temper, which can piss everybody ard me off.(need to change,but over the yrs still the same le)
2) I love sleeping cos no time to sleep.I can sleep for more than 12 hours.
3) I hate liers n hypocrites. I think they have no rites to be my friend.
4) I hate dressing up nicely.Cos have to wake up early n put on makeup,wear nice nice.
5) I weight 47kg which is the heaviest in my life. I want to go back to 45kg.
6) I dun like pple to nag/stare or horn me. I find it very annoyin.But i like to stare at pple. :p
7) I love my hair the most. Cos i dun really take care of it n it still can be so smooth n silky.
8) I hate drivers cos i think they gt no road manners.
9) I wish that i need not to work. Can slack at home, go travelling.
10) I dun like to brush my teeth at nite due to laziness.
11) I like freedom which my current bf dun give me alot.
12) I like motorbikes the most cos i think is thrilling.
13) I wish my grandmother is still alive. So that i can have someone to tok to.
14) I wish to have a own hse.So that i can do watever i wan.
15) I like to on music loud loud when i m angry.
16) I dun care wat pple think of me but i dun like pple to tok abt me behind my back.
17) I treasure my pillow more than anything else.
18) I can't stand pple who think high of themselves when they r nt.
19) I dun promise pple when i can't do it.
20) I dun like pple to ask me wat happen when i m in bad mood.
21) I dun like pple do things which i dun like but i can do them. :P (so unreasonable)
22) I will curse n swear those pple who make me very very angry. (Some of them had tasted it)
23) I like swimming but no time to go. (excuses)
24) I cannot tolerate pple take their own sweet time n do their things.

Seems like i dun like things more than my weakness. Need to do some reflection.

I HATE MY BROTHER

how come i gt tis kind of brother..wondering if i m my mother's daughter.Just now he eat dinner finish, he din wash his bowl. Then i told him hey u din wash ur bowl le. He just reply"oh i forget".then he just simply walk out of the house. WTH!!! As if hse gt maid like tat. When he come back home from camp, i will be very angry. Cos whether he wash clothes my mother will just wash n hang his clothes 1st. Then ours will be later. Pls lor by the time she hang my clothes to dry, is already dry n smelly lor. I hate it. HATE IT!!! HATE IT!!!!WAT SO GREAT ABOUT HAVING A SON?? DAUGHTERS JUST LIKE SLAVE TO THEM.

had been sick since friday.I doubt tml i can go to work.Sigh~~~ started new job less than a month and i had already taken 2days mc(not including tml).Anyway i really gt no mood to go work. I oso dun know y.I just feel like relaxing at home n do nthing. I want to continue studying but hor once i open the book it will make me sleep.OMG..I cannot be so lazy liao. I must work double hard than anyone else. But i dun have the motivation. Can someone give me some motivation....pls........

have been busy for weeks...i m very very tired already...the stocks just keep coming in non-stop.omg..my bf had bought me a laptop!!! i m very happy abt it.Cos he finally made my dreams come true...oooooooooooooooooooooooooo.I think i m the happiest woman in the world.I have a nice bf although he sometimes had weird temper.hehe..have to pen till here.dun know wat to write liao.

today i feel like been betrayed. Althought is a small matter,but i dun think tis is hw a buddy should be treated.My buddy agreed to have lunch with me. But in the end she put me aeroplane. And wat made me unhappy and irritated was she went out already then sms me. Y can't she tell me in front of me.Y sms? I can't fig out wat was she thinking. Yes M and A ask you to go but as a courtesy u shld have told me tat u r going out and not having lunch with me. And M in the first place dun agreed to have lunch with me.I m not a stupid nor idiot person lo.Just becos u want to drive E out.Then u can make me like a fool and wait for somebody to tell me tat u all are not having lunch with me.

I like ur maid/slave like tat. U all gt appointment all tis and u all r late,then u ask me to do things for u all. I m not in ur department nor u r my superior.I m kind to help u all to do things.,but i feel like i treat u all so good and tis is wat i get in the end. A LOST OF TRUST!!! I Dun think i deserve tis kind of attitude and attention. I totally agreed with tis sentence"ur close friends or sisters will still betray u".Wat have i done wrong to get tis attitude.

DUN PROMISE ME ANYTHING THAT U CAN'T DO...........................................I HAVE TOTALLY LOSE TRUST IN U ALL!!!

I find tat tis quiz is quite true abt me.... (i mean the result)...u all can try it out....
www.colorquiz.com

these are my results to the quiz

Your Existing Situation:
Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship,or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.


Your Stress Sources:
The existing situation is disagreeable. Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others


Your Restrained Characteristics:
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.


Your Desired Objective:
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.


Your Actual Problem:
Takes a delight in action and wants to be respected and esteemed for her personal accomplishments


Your Actual Problem #2:
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity

one of my colleague had tendered his resignation. Well i m happy for him tat he found a better beneafit and higher pay. Wondering hw long will i be able to stay in tis company. No good beneafit, Job scope sucks, colleagues wise for some is good and only a certain amount of colleague gt attitude problems and is those serious case one. OMG!! hw m i going to survive. Pls take note there is no free lunch in this world.So even u give me claim off days i oso bu xi han. Cos is not worth it. If the person want to help then help with happiness. If not ask her to f**k off.Pls take note of this:I dun force or ask the fellow to help. Is she the one who is willing to help to do my job. I won't ask for help even though i cannot manage cos it will invite gossip one.Which i dun like. And for the FM pls do not assume tat i have conflick with the other colleague if u dun know anything. If i were to have conflick with her i won't be toking to her and will give her face to see liao. Don't anyhw put words into my mouth in front of others colleagues. U r the one who is creating unnecessary things to the team. Y we new pple dun click with the old staffs u as a FM u have to solve tis problems and not to listen to one party only. Dun always say u r a professional accountant. Cos u r nt performing like one. U cannot be our department head cos u dun solve problem nicely. I hate it. I hate it. I m not trying to do things within my job scope only. But everyone has a limitation. Imaging u have to do 11 outlets things do u tink u still can do others things? U pay me hw much i do hw much for u. Work smart nt work hard. Wat is call nt performing well and wat is performing well. If the pple dun work ot does it mean tat the person is nt performing well? Then for those who come very early to work and end work till 8/9pm means tat they are performing well? For wat i understand if u come early and end work like means u r nt efficient enough!!Pls take note NOT EFFICIENT!!!There's a problem with u ..think abit it. Time is precious..if a company work like tat hw can a company survive?Dun understand y some pple eat until so old already still cannot understand this simple logic. I m not trying to be mean nor trying to do anything. But as for me i won't put more time in a company from the day i left my old company....The old elaine had died since the day i step out of the old company.

haven't been blogging for more than 2weeks (i think la).Well tis 2weeks wasn't an happy week for me.As usual working problems la.Pple not happy abt company la. And worst is yesterday which make me really really angry.Which i dun think my manager did not give me a good ans.So today i went in to my boss room and tok abt it. Glad tis thing is over and my boss did gave me an good ans and i m happy abt it. But he did request me to forgive and forget. Come to think of it if i willing to forgive and forget will the other party willing to do so?Pple r not happy abt tat i went into boss room and tok but since manager or om or senior can't handle my case (which is very simple to solve) then i will have to say sorry and have to bring the matter up to the boss. Tis is the first time i tok to him.I dun know y they are so minded tat i go into the boss room and tok.If u think u r rite then stand firm on ur rites. I dun see the any reason y i can't go into the boss room.Since my boss already say 'my door will always open for u whenever u need to tok to me'.And of cos if u know my temper u shld know wat will i do.Since my senior one word i dun care..is fine with me, i just go tell the boss abt it and let him settle. I beginning to hate the pple there. And they like to play politics.Which they always say 'we dun play politics here'.feel like slapping them and wake them up.they like to crisitse 'us' from behind then 'me' will cristics u in front. i won't like those pple whom is unhappy abt me and putting in words into my mouth.I think they are hypocrites. I respect u as my senior i tell u my problem.u gave tis kind of words to me sorry no more respect for u liao. I find tat u r such a failure. u dun even know hw to handle a simply case well tat's mean u r a failure to be my senior.i find tat regardless of manager or senior they won't fight for our staff benfit.They will always side the company or the outlets staff. If a senior or manager can't stand firm well i dun think i need to discuss anything to them.My manager oso say tat doesn't mean tat u always go tok to the boss,boss will side u . I didn't say tat boss will side me ,and i dun always go to tok to the boss. I find her very stupid.Cos if i know tat i m rite and the solution tat the so called management pple gave me is F**ked up ans/reason. I will straight goes to the boss and tell him tat hey boss look ur management staff gave me tis kind of stupod reason which i think is unfair ,pls kindly look into it.If i m wrong i m wrong if i m rite i m rite. Stand firm on the decision tat u all make.

What's Your True Color?


OrangeYou're a bold, confident orange. A warm, powerful color that indicates a strong, welcoming personality, orange is the mark of people who are social and extroverted by nature. Vibrant, with an upbeat attitude, you have a bright, inviting demeanor. Energetic and fun-loving, you're a real friend-magnet. Your easy charm and unassuming manner make you the sort of person people want to meet and get to know better. Well-rounded and fun to be around, you enjoy helping others, so it's no surprise that orange also symbolizes attraction. Orange is an extraordinary color — for an extraordinary person.


AM I?

yesterday when to tampines again but tis time is taking bus instead of bike. Yesterday was the 1st time tat i took bus with him. I m very happy abt it. So we went there to eat seoul garden but too bad it was fully booked. in the end we went to crystal jade and eat but it wasn't nice after all.After tat we went to buy shredder. I bought a shoes cost me 26.90 i think. And then went back home taking cab. I play with the shredder and keep askin him to give me some papers tat he dun want .

Well weekends really end fast.Tml will be a working day and is going to be very sian the whole week.Y? cos is stock take time.. and i dun like .Well guess have to pray the time will go as fast as weekends.