i m very very very very angry....today is nye and nw i still staying at home. Going nowhere.. Angry angry,y?cos he dun want to go out. And tis stupid pc always hang make me more more more angry...Feel like smashing it!!!

very angry abt him. he think tat he is the mighty one. For no reason get angry.Ask him go out oso lazy only know hw to go parkway,tampines and ms. all is nearby one.Doesn't he get sian one.I sleeping he can disturb me, he sleeping i cannot disturb him.Then ask him to eat something he will say i nv eat b4 so i dun eat.For my sake he oso won't eat.Then he ask me to eat i must eat. Ask me to eat lunch, i really didn't heard wat he say ma. I only heard xiao bai chi fan. Pls lo xiao bai is the dog wat u take me as a dog ar. WTF.

yesterday i wear so nice he bring me go east coast.. and i wearing high heels. For goodness sake wear high heels go east coast and walk the sand will dirty my shoes.Then i tok him he get angry and walk off. Y guys can't understand gals thinking and y he can't see wat m i wearing. Really really get pissed off. KNN.


I feel like scolding pple liao !!!!

hmm...long time no blog.y? too lazy..hehe..not really la.weekend sleep too much. Wat have i done during the weekends? well nothin much except sleep. Sunday went to ms for window shopping.Monday went to tampines for window shopping.Now no money liao so have to budget everything. Sigh~~Well thur and friday i will on leave liao..so happy abt it.. really get wait for the time to passby faster.Tml work for one more day then i can relax liao.

Wat i want to do for my leave.Well thursday accompany my bf to the motor inspection and ard evening go my brother army gaduation(dun know whether issit call gaduation).Friday ma..hmm maybe rearrange his room (but must see whether i have the mood or not).Sat maybe go do my hair as nw is like grass.

Now waiting to get bonus but dun know have or not as my fm have nt give us the ans.But heard from my colleagues tat tis yr company is earning the profit so should have but as for chinese company they are all the same kind.So stingy!!! u have to work so much but the pay is like peanut.Well i think next yr i will find another job and i promise myself tat the job must be much much more better than my current job.

today is my final theory exam for my ccna 2 . Not bad still have score 67.3 marks for it.ok la gt chris to tell me on it on some questions. didn't really go study it but make the effort to memerise it.Have to thank chris for helping me so much.She can be a great lecturer.

Tis friday my company is having a pop luck lunch. I will be in charge of the tidbits.haha.well can't think of anything to buy cos everyone taste is different.So have to wait for them to give me instruction. Actually i dun like having lunch with some of them cos some of them is hypocrite and i hate it....so fake!!but no choice who ask me working in tat company. Well i shall plan for friday nite events as i will be asking my buddy to join us hehe.

yesterday is my practical test and i score 100 marks,but..i wasn't really happy abt it cos it seems like i have completely forget everything. I asking myself m i tired or really forget abt the whole configuration...When starting of the configuration i know hw to do but when it comes to answering the question in the paper i start to blur. I oso dun know y. I stare at the question very long and keep cancelling the ans. In the end my paper is so damm messy.We gt 3 activities to do and the 1st activities i make a mess.when come to 2nd activitiy my keyboard start to go haywire.omg i do so much configuration on the router and the problem just pop out like tat. Really quite annoying.My classmates try to help me . really have to give them a big hug for helping me. Lucky i gt save the configuration.

No choice have to reboot. I had prepared for the worst.Lucky when i try again everything had been saved.When dun know y when come to router rip no network then it gt hang again...wat the hell man. i had been trying tis step again and again. i give up. the third time i do sh run everything is ok liao ... I gt the configuration i want without doing the no network ... :)there is a question on telnet. i know i do it b4 and i m very familiar with it but yesterday i do telnet i just fail to do so.doing tftp,sh cdp neighbors all i know hw to do but my mind just blank. it was a bad day for me as i had been doing the labs so many time and nothing happen. dun know y yesterday like tat. But it was all over.

Next monday is the theory test and i haven't study. Got to fail the theory liao..sob..sob...i dun want to fail.But i just dun like theory.I guess no choice have to study hard.have been very stress..stress abt work,stress abt study,stress abt bike practical...I m going crazy soon. i wanted to give up the bike practical but i just nt satisfied.My mind ask me to give up but my heart tell me no.u can't give up..i m confused.to continue or not.My fear of riding bike had come back again.I dun know y.But i keep thinking abt the scenes i had seen involving bikes and pillion.i started to scare.Plus the minor accident i had..well dun think of it.

today went for my bike practical wif my cousin.It wasn't easy as i thought.The bike itself is so damm heavy and we have to push the bike.It was tough for gals. I wonder hw the other gals whom had passed did it.I really can't fig out.We drop the bike,we fell from the bike nos of times. But i still determine tat i can do it.The more u scare the more u can't do it. So i told myself elaine u can do it. Lucky for me i had passed the practical 1.01for 1st attempt.But my cousin wasn't so lucky.She had to retake. There are the few words i have to tell her....Meiyin u can do it. Tell urself u can do it.Dun be afraid of falling down.Control "it" not "it" control you.Dun give up so easily. I will wait for u to pass ur 1.01. Then we go together and take 1.02 ok? No hurry.Take ur time.Do some arm excerise.

My whole body is now aching like mad. My leg is swollen as i think is i fall together with the bike and hurt it.Palms have bruises. Knee cap had blue black.ok had to go sleep .....ZZZzzz

today when to the bbdc to take my theory lesson. i was quite blur cos tis is my 1st time attend the lesson.when u go there u must print out the allocation slip. but today dun know wat happen to the system (think is down),so we were asked to print the other side.The instructor just say u can print over there. So i went to the other side dun know whether issit tat machine there.So i just stand aside and see other pple doing. So i go and do the same. It printed out booking statement.Dun know correct or not i oso dun care and proceed to the classroom. As time is still early so i sat outside the classroom. And i saw alot of pple waiting oso. 1st i thought is only riders all the same class, but it wasn't so. I thought i go to the wrong class. But on the board stated there classroom 2. Din't care much abt that.

Now i know tat basic is drivers and riders all the same class. Now i must finish fast for my theory lessons........

today dun know put wat tittle.....can't think of one liao...

today wat i had for lunch..hmm...ooo ya i had rice,vegetable,carrot cake and ice cream...omg so fatting.i find myself abit fat nw especially on the stomach..admin job la as usual sit and sit for the 8hrs.but to me i still ok cos i dun really sit for 8hrs.after lunch well have to get back to work again..sian ar.. the moment i step into the office,my face will auto turn black..cos i dun like to face some body which irritate me alot.well thinking of changing job..but i miss some colleagues if i leave.well leave it to fate ma.. if really one day i already up to the neck and explore then i will leave ba..sign...working in local company no good.u have to endure alot of things...well think dun say..as alot of pple know rite..

shld pen till here... go to sleep liao..

going crazy

today i very pissed off.. cannot go on leave one..once on leave the person take over my job will make a messy of it.... urgh~~ nw feel like throwing and scream at some one..today so much orders from the outlets..all have to find spare parts which i hate the most. Wat the hell man!! Angry with the boss whom buy the frames from china. it so lousy and always do warranty exchange..Make me more work nia.. And the things here like so messy .. u walk everywhere,everywhere gt stocks..ooo feel like throwing all away.. Then my tis "clever" colleague i cannot tahan him.. he everytime do things won;t check whether issit correct or nt.. then do wrong liao still can ask me then i do ar...wat!! u do wrongly still i have to do for u . Told him like tat do liao...still give me those blur face..so fed up.. can't he understand wat m i toking abt or issit i dun explain it clearly enough...he work here for 4mths liao still blur on the transfer things....no wonder my senior oso angry abt him picking things up so slow... the outlets pple more blur..told them no stock and once gt stock the supplier will deliver to them..keep on asking and asking... they nt sian i listen and see email until i very sian liao. Really dun know whether i can work for hw long...Feel like giving letter liao..URGH~~~VERY VERY ANGRY AND PISSED OFF LIAO.Can i just take my bag and go????

happy memories on my birthday

yesterday my bf bring me go ah yat restaurant and eat my favourite abalone..... i was very happy abt it...below are the photos we take during the dinner time....

tis is the tea we drink....chinese tea

tis shark fin is almost eaten up..cos we only rem to take pic after eating...hee

here come the abalone..look nice rite...but nt very tasty...

tis is a scallop mango..inside is scallop and mango..i eat the scallop, my bf eat the mango...

a very normal veg...

a lobster without shell....wif e fu noodle

fried rice with abalone sauce.....my bf eat the whole bowl up..wow

the dessert i forgot to take a pic ...after eating up..

this is the ring we bought on my birthday...it has a special wording on it..but can;t take clearly on the wordings.....

pre-birthday celebration

today i went to k box with my colleague and ex-colleague to celebrate my birhtday.one of them gave me a bracelet(which she make it herself).I like it very much.After k box we went to bugis and eat ice cream.After tat we went home.

When i reach home i give my bf see my bracelet which i think is nice.Then he gt me a surprise.He went to emicakes and buy one box of cakes for me.Inside the box there are nine cakes(small one).All are chocolates.(i like the most)Feel very sweet inside my heart.hehe....


shall pen till here,tml have to acc him to play bowling..and i havn't bath since i gt home ard 11+pm.

today my colleague had gone to taiwan. So envy her. Her job will be cover by my two colleagues.I only cover a portion of her job...lucky..if not i cannot do my own things liao...The invoices had been piling up over these few days.No time to do due to stocks keep coming in. Today already spent half a day doing the stocks,lucky i had finished already if nt i cannot go on leave. I dun really like to hand over my job to others cos it will increase their burden as they oso have alot to do it.Watever urgent i will do 1st.

work r nt really going smoothly cos i find tat their procedure abit nt correct.but dun know hw to say it out. alot of things my senior want to control it from hq.This problem already exist long time but still can't solve it. maybe is becos pple r nt co-operative enough.So bo bian i had to bear with it 1st. Tml is my study day and is practical day.. i already lag behind two lab..but no choice, doing practical is nt one person doing, is two person have to do together if nt u can't get the result.And have to do 5/6 practical lesson in 2hrs. I love doing practical but i dun like the feeling of lagging behind.Think have to buck up abit.Wonder if i can pass my ccna exam in tis condition. Really have to go study the thick book if nt dun understand wat the lecturer is toking abt.


i really hope i can pass my exam cos one exam is nt cheap...Sigh..have to go to sleep now if nt tml will be late for work again.ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

boring sunday

today is sunday.My bf is working,so i m feeling boring at home.But..later will be meeting him at expo.Wonder after expo will he come straight home or bring me go other places.But nvm la even if he want to go home.Cos oso dun feel like going anywhere.Now the dogs are in the living room,want to play with them but they r so rough and i think my bf mum grooming the dogs.Come to think of it having dogs like having children.Have to sayang them and play with them.One thing no good is tat when they r hungry or suffering from any pain we dun knoe.Tat's y have to monitor them.

Next friday i will taking my bike license.Finally can go book liao after so much thinking.I hope the whole process will go smoothly for me.Pray hard...

Shld pen up to here. Gt to pack my things and meet him liao.

SUPER DUPER ANGRY

tonite i really very angry . feel like scolding the stupid guy.actually tonite was going to see a concert at the indoor stadium.my sis ask me whether wan to go so i say ok.then my sis asked her best friend to go and best friend agree.so the best friend bf fetch us and headed to the indoor stadium.and his driving really sucks.so inconsiderate and reckless.hw i hope there a tp dwn there.is not tat i m bad tat want him to get fine or wat so ever. but 5 lives in a car nt including the driver,had he think of us or not.had he think of the worst?wat happen really accident and hw is he going to ans our parents.pei ye pei bu qi.i can't stand tis kind of driver...so in the car i softly say to my bro gf tat i dun want to die so early. then my sis gave me a nt happy look lo. wat i say is truth wat. wat u want me to say it to him tat hey can drive carefully or not i dun want to die so early.

when get dwn the car my sis say me lo, can give her face or not. is not tat i dun want to give her face is tat i really can't stand it anymore.he drive like road bully so inconsiderate not to give way to other car. tat is wat i hate. do u know tat just becos of nt give way and suddenly dash out of the road can cos accident!!!so i angry and tell her tat i dun want to see alr.

Really can't stand tis driver. i bless him with everyday tp fined him. and i wish him good luck with his life.If my bf ever ride like tat i sure i give him good fucking scolding.Drivers out there treasure ur life and others too.

terrible day~~~

Long time didn't update my blog...too busy to do so. Busy with work and schooling.Actually is quite tiring..tiring as in travelling.. but compare with work and schooling i still like schooling cos when u go to school u won't feel the stress there (although the topic is difficult to understand and rem)but better than work.when working time u can't concentrate on one thing at a time but schooling is different and u can see pple smiling at school as compare to work. My work place look like "zombies".They will work and work the whole of 8hrs(omg)...and u can't hear lots of laughters.I dun really like e environment ..too "dead" liao. wat's more horrible is tat u can hear pple toking very loud even the person whom she is toking to sitting next to them.Y can't they tok softer abit.

Suffering from bad flu... dun feel like going to see doc..still waiting for it to recover by itself.Dun know hw i get it..(still thinking). Today suppose to go home early but end up work till 7.45pm..due to the stocks came in at 5.00pm and have to finish counting.If not boss tml come in will nag and make a mess of it.. so no choice lo.. hope tml everything will go smoothly cos i gt alot of things pile up and trying to clear it asap. Sometimes i thinking i only gt a pr of hands and my speed has alr reach the max liao. Y my senior still ask me to clear them asap. They themselves oso pile up alot of things wat..pple chasing for payment all tis... y senior can slowly do and we have to do faster.Nt only tat senior only do within their job scope and we have to do multi-task. Last time senior say when stocks come all have to help..end up my colleague and i do only.Nt my job oso wat but i see him do until so jialet then help lo...watever i can do i do lo.Some more wat i hate is tat some pple dun help but still can come and tell me "bye i m going home liao . happy working." Wow i tell u hor at tat time i really want to tell them off liao. Lucky now i knw hw to control my temper abit if like last time i alr shout at them liao.

Dun think i sit there quiet means u can push ur luck... everyone has their own limit of "ren". Wait one day i blow up it won't be a good thing liao..Shall pen up to here liao.Tml will be a better day.

unhappy

tonite i was very unhappy and upset, not because of the outing is not fun. is because my bf is angry with me. he dun like me going home late. but i still went till 3pm. today is kat last day of work so we went to celebrate. I alr told him tat i will going home late. then he was angry and told me off. i know tat he care abt me, worry abt my safety but kat and me have been friends for half a yr. and she really take good care for me. so in order not to spoil the mood i went 4 the outing.


when i reach ktv at 9.00pm, i msg him telling him tat i had reached there, but he did not reply. from that time onwards i was feeling sad cos he is angry liao. i know he won't sleep tat early. just tat he dun want to msg me only. i just want to tell him tat i know hw to take care of myself and i will be extra careful when going back late. through out the whole outing i was just feeling sad, unhappy and i feel like going home. but in order not to spoil my friends' mood , i have to pretend tat i m happy. so tat they won't get influence by my mood. i dun like tis feeling, cos i dun always go out late.is once a while only. i m really envy tat my friend's bf is understanding, will tell his gf tat enjoy herself , reach home msg him... but my bf won't do tat. he just say dun care u liao. u knoe tis kind of feeling is no gd. which spoilt my whole outing mood. i had waited for tis day to come and i was kind of like excited abt it. cos i finally can see my buddy liao. but when tis day come which is today i feel terrible is becos i know tat i will go until very late, and he will be very angry abt it. i scare he angry dun knw y. my character is like u angry ur business la... there is nothing to get angry abt it. i m not going with guys. i m going out with my gfs.

no choice.. since i love him i have to accept wat he is. but i dun like it. everytime when i go out i have to worry tat will he get angry? shld i not join the outing? but the problem is i dun always go out. since i started my cos i seldom go out liao, i oso need gfs to pour out my feelings. i need to unwind myself since work & study is so stressful. but he just can't understand..... :...(

for the sake of him, i already change my temper although is not fully change.. but at least i try my best. i always gave in but he dun. he always promised to take me out but in the end stay at his hse whole day. tat one i close one eye open one eye. wat i m hurt is tat he said u only know kat for half a yr only. so y must go until so late, u know gers and gers tok or feeling is almost the same. so of cos my feeling to kat is like known for yrs. and i won't be seeing her much although when schooling can see la but is different lo. i m so used to that she is sitting beside me. toking to me , teaching me life hw to go on and so for. i dun know la, my heart now like a knife is stabbing at it, feeling so terrible~~~ i hope if there a chance my bf see my blog, i hope he can understand hw m i feeling. a couple shld trusted each other not to suspect.... learn hw to love an inperfect person....................

I HATE TIS FAMILY

i m damm fucking angry. my parents love my brother so much and he is not small liao. he already in the army liao. still my idiot parents fetch him to and fro. the worst thing is i can't understand my fucking brother treating his gf like a slave like tat. i feel like slapping and beat him up. from today onwards i tell myself i DUN HAVE TIS BROTHER. HE DIE OR ALIVE NOT MY BUSINESS.

and i HATE my parents. DUN LIKE ME DUN GIVE BIRTH TO ME LA. I TOTALLY HATE TIS FAMILY. wat "tian xia fu mu duo shi ai zi nv" is all rubbish. i dun find my parents love me . they only pay attention to my brother and sister nia. they give them the best. and me wat do i get ?? in their heart wat m i to them? wat must respect parents ..i say is all bullshit. i will never them escpecially my mother.my aunts and her can put their own mother in the old aged home . wat is tis man .... tat's is their mother lei . shld take care of her although she gt illness all tis . but instead of taking care of my grandmother they (the daughters and sons of my grandmother) put her in the old aged home. after tis incident i learn hw to disrespect my parents cos they dun won't my respect. from small to sec sch the only one who loved and cared abt me is my grandmother. i love you grandmother. you are always in my heart.


jan if u have the chance to read my blog, wat i advise u is "break off with my brother" he dun worth ur caring..... i believe u can find a better one than my brother. no need to treat him so good one. he is a man he shld do wat a man shld do. and not like a gigglo....

wat a busy week

for the past few weeks i had been so busy with work.due to new outlet is coming up next sat. so everything have to prepare well.but when i had prepare my shedule liao and i won't follow.y? cos always gt emergency things come up one. when i m free the stocks dun come and when i plan to pack other things the stocks come.. and it will come alot one, like today. i really scare and stress tat i can't prepare the stocks for the new outlet in time.next week my cos will be starting and is one week two days one.. so won't have enough time to do the things.hw~~ hw~~ stress ar stress~~


well think tml dun go the dinner liao. stay back and do as much as i can.come to think of the question tat next door colleague ask.."y nyo staff all seems like so stress like tat? work until non stop." wat can i answer.. just keep quiet lo cos i myself oso asking tis question.sigh~~ thought of changing job will be a better one but end up still the same as my ex company. wat the hell man..............................workload is driving me crazy~~ dun think so much go sleep now. zzzzz

working life..

tis few days of working mood not so gd.. dun know y.. maybe my colleagues they all want to quit. they think tat tis company working lifestyle is too manually liao. they r not used to it. well as for me i dun get too much influence cos my department and their department is different. during lunch they always complain tat they fc is not up to standard but well no choice rite,boss like her can liao ma. wat for they concern so much.i know that the outlets pple sometimes are too much and they complain to the fc,fc oso do nothing but since u have work in tis company,is either u take it or leave it.

i know that for the past few mths was very very stressed and busy, due to the roadshows(which every mth always gt one). me oso very busy and stressed ma,they are not the only one. somemore i one person doing all the stocks.and i mostly the one who ans the phone calls lor. i oso didn't complain much but pls lor during lunch time can dun complain it will affect my appetite. the stupid system is either hang or too slow, but u know la local company is always local company.u think they will spend the money to buy good systems? no lo they rather spend it on their stocks.

colleagues see me like happy go lucky, always do funny action in front of them but life is like tat is either u happy or sad. i dun like to see them unhappy tat's y i make funny action for them to see lo. they all say me i work until numb. sometimes i myself oso think so . dun care so much lo, the company isn't urs and they make a profit do u think u will have a share? no lo. sometimes i oso dun feel like working ot(cos they dun give ot pay one!!instead they give u claim off days)but i gt really no choice have to finish up the stocks if not outlets won't have anything to sell. and when boss ask y no sales then i will be the one to blame for giving them the stocks late... shit rite everything seems like elaine's fault. pls lo i only 2hands and i have to handle 12outlets. next month one more outlet coming up. i think i will be super duper stress. somemore next mth got two roadshows at the same week even worse.. i can't think of it, i m really scare that i can't handle it well.better go sleep now if not tml will have no mood to work again. :...(

thinking of taking IT cos back again

i have been thinking of taking my it cos back again. cos i getting sick and tired of the company tat i working now. moreover i like "it" since sec sch and score quite gd. regret for stopping. i have been browsing the cos over these few mths but the schedule seems to be very tight. and somemore is on mon and wed, wed still ok for me but as for monday seems to be very very tight lei. cos monday ma sure have alot of work to do ma.of cos they have other days for the cos but the venue is far away from my workplace lei. guess tml tell my colleague 1st then see hw's the outcome.... if she agreed then of cos good la... if not then i dun know hw liao.time to sleep liao..hope tml will be a better day~~

1st attempt of blogging~~

yuppie finally i set up my own blog...considering for a long long time. cos dun know whether to set up one or not due to my laziness. But in the end i make up my mind to set up one. ok enough of all the rubbish.

Today i go to work,my mood is very good (dun knw y oso).. but when ard 10+ my buddy whom is oso my colleague told me tat she is leaving. I feel happy for her but at the same time i feel sad.. although we had known each other for few mths but we really get along very well. although sometimes cannot tahan her princessy but overall she still ok. Sad to see her leaving but wat to do.. no choice rite. Sign~~ guess she will find another good buddy when she goes to her new job.Sob..Sob...ok enough of her liao.

Now i m listening to goodnite song which is sang by smufts... is a really nice goodnite song.I like it very much.....try to sleep now, close ur eyes,try to think of tml, all the stars wish u goodnite, so i switching off the lights.one more hug, one more smiles, kiss u onces, kiss u twice, i been here for a while, try to sleep now and close ur eyes~~~goodnite ZZZzzz