once again i m sick...Argh~~ dun like the feeling of been sick. Btw who love to get sick. Keep eating medicine eat until i m scare of it. MC for 2 days and i have tons of work have not done yet. How?? Who could help me. I m really sick and tired of this kind of working life. Hw long m i going to endure? I oso dun knw. Dun like pple to talk to me in a harsh tone and pls lor u r asking pple to help lei can't u be abit kei qi yi dian. So wat you r a senior engineer. Big deal la. I fuck care u r senior engineer or wat, as long as u r asking pple for help u have to be polite even tons of work are piling up. U respect me i respect u .U give me fucking attitude i double it back to u. At the most i lost my job nia. Who cares. Maybe i should learn to ignore all this things and concentrate on my work.

I m a person whom i worry too much or think too much. Worry can't finish my work, ya i knw work will never be finish but at least finish the work of the day. Sometimes i wonder if i m too helpful or i just bo chap. i think i m more to bo chap. Although tat is nt under my job scope but still i take it. No moral in working tis company. At least my previous coy, my hr knw tat i have no moral she still encouraging me, telling me if i have any prbm can go to her. But here, although my fm is around but it seems like she is invisible to me.y? cos she is always so busy with her work. And even i have prbm i have to think of a solution 1st b4 going to tell her my prbm. Since i have the solution wat for i go find her rite. stupid. And i knw tat fm is not going to stand up for me even is not my fault. I rather my so call supervisior be my fm. Y? At least she teach me how should i do blah blah blah. Ya at times she can be bad but overall she still stand up for u. She the person whom is soft in heart. So as long as u r nt in a big trouble she is happy to help u . My MD always say we r one big family, should help each other. But so far i see only a few pple r helpful. Most of them r stuck up. Sigh~~ guess i have to endure for the time being until i really cannot tahan anymore. Sometimes i m thinking if i take up the other job will it be better for me? Did i make the wrong choice? Oh god pls guide me... i have lost myself.